09/07/24...
hiiii it's been a while !! i went on holidays to bali. it was rlly good! i am super super glad to be home though, i don't like travelling.
i do plan on updating like fr soon, i wanna make an update log and to do list, wanna make it a little pop-up the same way the disembodied thoughts is, but i cannot for the LIFE of me manage to get two draggable elements to work 3.
oh well, womp womp.
also, made sleepie into something else, and tbh i think she is me for reallll, althought i will miss sleepy a lot. although the new sleepie isn't purple at all, she'll fit right in :)
10/06/24...
i amd SO pissed off. like genuinely. I feel so angry and hurt and sad . guh. who knew a stupid furry character could cause me so much emotional distress. well, the person who's currently trying to SELL her when they got her for FREE. ugh it's a whole situation i won't get into it rn (i lied yes i am)
okay so basically. i had this character for a year, right? at the time her name was Sleepy. Sleepy was LITERALLY me. my being inside that stupid furry mf. anyways. long story short, i went through a REALLY rough time, almost killed myself yk the usual. I was hvaing a miced episode - hypomania from my bipolar2, and splitting from my BPD. trust me its NOT a good mix!
so i ended up getting rid of sleepy, asking politely to not just go off and sell her. i messaged them after the episode had worn off and i was stable. i realised how much i missed sleepy. i asked politely since they hadn't done any work for her (like art n shit), and asked if they would accept a bit of money or a character trade for her back. they got super defensive. i said okay and backed off.
3 months later and they haven't done a SINGLE thing with her. no art, no stories, nothing. they reached out to me and said they might give her back, i was stoked!
they said they wanted a character in return and i said okay, and let them choose any characters of their choice except for kiyoko. i even offered bambi, who was worth $650!
they said they didn't want that and said lets settle on the money route, i said i only had $20 ish bucks. they asked for $80. mind you, this was a FREE. character. and i said what no?? that's insane. Anyways, i blocked them, called them a piece of shit for trying to take advantage of someone like thta, and made Sleepie. Basically a new and improved version. I figured it had enough differences to not be the same.
they reported my account, and Sleepie got taken off of the website. I am so livid. I sent in a ticket explaining the whole situation.
hope u enjoyed that shitty rant bc ik i did.
just gonna abandone that website tbh if Sleepie can't be up there. not even the same fucking character anymore. just looks like a redesign. and I DESIGNED SLEEPY IN THE FIRST PLACE! i genuinely don't see an issue omfg.
ALSO!!! sleepy is up for sale !!! they put her up for sale for $80-90!!! USD!!!!!! they got her for FREE!! that's so vile. slimy. ugh.
09/06/24...
rargrhrhgh!!! i'm so overwhelmed atm tbh. i'm sick. augh. it's either covid or the flu. i go on holidays in 6 days so omg i hope i'm better by then fr.
i need to create but i'm not sure what to do. ik i should yk, update things on my website, but if i do that it might feel like a chore. it's weird bc usually the coding pat and styling and figuring stuff out is the chore part
but i never rlly know what to fill websites with.
i got sleepie, well, stole her back (furries don't cancel me! [jk idc bc my strangers on the internet don't rule my life]). the asshole was trying to SELL her for 80!!!!! when it was given for FREE!!! what scum.
so i've just given her a bit of a redesign. bit of a fresher look B). so they can keep the old sleepy, but i have sleepIE.
i'm just that goo
AUGH OMG I CAN MAKE A SECTION FOR SLEEPIE !! excellent idea doe omg thanks ur so sweet youre so welcome ily omg ilyt
07/06/24...
yes, i use dd/mm/yy. cope.
website is UP! i mean, it's been up this entire time, but I'm finished with the formatting and stuff. I edit everything on the neocities editor so that's why there's like 400+ updates already.
i am going to bali is one week from tomorrow. i don't know how i feel. i am excited, i think. Also a bit nervous, i dislike new places.
today has been uneventful. i've been feeling sick all day and yesterday. rearrghhh!!!
finally something in this section... will add an updates + to do section as well. want it to be pop-up and draggable like disembodied thoughts, but cannot for the life of me firgure out how to make multiple divs draggable. coding, what a wonderful thing.
i think i am getting over my crush. maybe. kieran if ur reading this i want not a word on this topic . thank u sibling. but yeah, i don't know. every time she messages i get this HUGE feeling of dread and i think i am feeling jealousy, which i haven't felt to this extent in a really REALLY long time, if not ever. hooray! the complexities of human emotions!